Depression

I haven't posted for bit. Manly had to go back to work since we'd been gone a lot and I got all caught up in the first day so I sat....and sat.....and sat :-( I tried cleaning out that annoying drawer in my dressing table that needed it. I caught up on all the shows I'd recorded and not watched. I rented movies. I reorganized a cupboard that was bugging me. I e-mail a bunch of people. I read the book club selection and then 3 more by the same author. But mostly I sat and get depressed. I missed my kids, a lot. Oh they all called at least once a day, like they usually do but they seemed SO far away.

Number 1 son has kicked the wedding planning into high gear with his girl. I wanted to drive up there and stay a bit but it wasn't realistic, I mean they had to work and all. Number 2 son is embarking on a great internship and trying to make all his classes fit. I wanted to fly down and help him register and buy his books but again, it wasn't realistic, I mean another flight and being gone again. Baby bird is just loving life at school. Was it weird that I wanted to go get his laundry? I was craving contact. The poor kid is the only one close so I worry I smother him. It doesn't stop me.......but I worry about it at least.

Any suggestions? I don't want to make large life changes because I'm not in the right frame of mind but something?

So I'm trying to find more things to do.